awkward...

i think the universal opinion about today's weather can be summed up in one single word "amazing".  the sky was crystal clear.  the wind was ever-so-slight keeping the 80-degree day from getting too warm.  the refreshing newness that today's weather brought us gave everyone the positive reinforcement that spring weather is on the horizon!

i remember around this same time last year, i typed a post and said the statement "i made it through the winter".  i guess i thought that i needed a plaque or trophy of some sort because the raising, training, nursing twins for 7 months or so had just about put me through the ringer.  i didn't say it was pretty...i am just saying i felt somewhat accomplished because i had made it down a pretty tough, new road.

this year, i have to tell you i feel completely different.  while we certainly have some hard days, these parsley babies certainly have their fair share of fun, too.  yes, we went through a rough week transitioning to one nap.  yes, we went through a week where 6:00 seemed to be a fun, new wake-up time as opposed to 7:00.  yes, we had a lovely week filled with double ear infections and a dash of RSV.  in spite of all of these negatives, though, i certainly am more aware and cognizant of the positives....times 2.

today was one of simply one of those great mommy days.  all 3 meals went well.  the babies slept in later this morning thanks to the time change.  they played hard and napped hard.  yep....a good day.

ben even got home a little early and we decided to take the babies out to play for a bit before we headed off to dinner.  once we were out, those 4 little feet were off and running.  at one point, minnie shot off one way and her brother opted to go the direct opposite.  to trick the kiddos to getting back into the same area, i said "let's go check the mail"....why they are obsessed with the mailman, recycle man, etc, i will never know.

minnie ran to me because her little, squishy legs were too tired, evidently, from the day's activities.  tully, on the other hand, was still running away so daddy was off to catch him.  as i walked with minnie back towards our place, i realized that it was one of the VERY few times when i found myself holding one precious, perfect little person.  it felt surreal.  to feel what it would be like to hold one baby and not have two to balance was such a surreal feeling.  it wasn't "easier".  it was just different.

i find myself looking like a crazy lady OFTEN with these twins of mine.  seeing me carry them in on each hip into publix and maneuver them into the side-by-side steering wheel-clad carts would make anyone laugh their tooshie off.  like a quarterback clutching his dear football, i have used more "holds" on these poor children than any playbook can contain.  trying to hold and contain two wiggly little people and keep them both safe AND happy is truly the definition of awkward.  but.....the image i just painted for you IS my life.

i guess what i am getting at is that at this stage in the twin-mommy game, i am getting more comfortable with dealing with two lives simultaneously.  i didn't say i have it down perfectly.  i didn't say i have advice to share about "how to" raise twins.  what i am saying is that i am to the point where i realize i am the mom of two lives created by our ever-perfect heavenly father.  the awkward feeling of carrying one baby made me realize that along with appreciate the ever-so-wonderful spring day...