birthday babes...

how we got here, i am not sure.  as i have gotten older, i catch myself saying things that typical "old people" say.  the phrase "it's amazing how fast time flies"truly does sum up, though, this past year.

i have never cried so hard, laughed so hard, or smiled so very big as i have since last september 1st. nothing could have prepared me for what this year entailed.  no training program, no book, nor knowledgeable person could have explained to me how much my life would change or how amazingly enriched it would become.  i swear, no price tag could be put on how valuable these 2 little lives have made my world.

minnie and tully are now a year old.  i can't count the number of awful diapers.  i can't count the hours of nervousness in this house.  i certainly can't count the number of smiles, though, either.  the good has definitely outweighed the bad.  the amount of happiness has far defeated the amount of helplessness.  the laughing by all of us has overpowered the arguments and daily moments of despair.  life has just been an ongoing sense of awe.

i can remember going through infertility issues.  i remember trying ovulation tests and never getting a smiley face.  i remember 20-30 negative pregnancy tests.  i remember 5 failed attempts with clomid.  i remember driving back and forth to nashville fertility in hopes that god's miracle workers would give me a baby!  i remember waiting the 2 long weeks to see if my IUI had "taken".

HOWEVER, what i remember most more than any moment in this world was the day i saw 2 little heartbeats blinking on the screen symbolizing my tully and my minnie's precious lives.  god gave ben and i 2 babies........2 babies.  he knit them ever-so-perfectly in my womb until last september 1st.  on that beautiful, gorgeous, crystal blue day, he invited them to join us.....

I am forever thankful to our god for giving us them on loan for a bit.  over the past year, they have been showered with so much love from our parents, sisters, extended family, and loving, dear friends.  minnie and tully are the wonderful babies they are because of ya'll.  we know that.  while we are so thankful for this first amazing year with our twins, we are also thankful and forever blessed by all that got them here.

our precious birthday boy

our little birthday girl