let the countdown begin...

the game is on, dear friends.  i simply cannot believe that minnie and tully's first birthday is 10 days away.

i cannot wrap the little brain that i have left around the fact that these little ones have been here with us for one whole year.  my, my....there have been some ugly moments; however, i truly can say the wonderful ones completely outweigh the not-so-pretty ones.

i don't want to completely trudge down memory lane right now.  i'll save that for the true "one year" posting.  i do, however, want to say that having twins has been the craziest, hardest, funnest, most life-altering task god has ever tossed our way.

certain people have the coping mechanisms to raise deux children at uno time.  this senorita, i shall not lie, was not born that way.  i am not a type A person.  i am not a rigid, schedule person.  i am not one that has everything done months in advance.  i am not a huge "planner" on a daily basis.  what i am trying to say is that all of those traits would help in raising multiples.

on the contrary, i decide what each day will bring on a daily (sometimes hourly) basis.  though i am organized and neat, i am not sure what the next hour will bring.  i am sentimental.  i am tender-hearted.  i can become a pile of teary mush instantly if i feel i am not being super-mommy to my babies.  all of these traits that i do possess often make raising the two kiddos pretty darn hard.

i often think god got confused when he gave ben and i the wonderful little lives that we named minnie & tully.  i don't see how he thought that i could raise a baby times two! even though i don't feel equipped with all of the knowledge needed to do it a lot of the time, i have to think the man upstairs knows what he is doing.

a bible study teacher of mine gave me a copy of this verse in college that i always keep somewhere in my car...

"for i know the plans i have for you, says the lord...plans to prosper and not to harm you...plans to give you hope and a future..."

i am so glad he was planning something special when he planted minnie and tully in that belly of mine in january of 2010.  those blinking heartbeats that we saw weeks later was the most precious sight these eyes have ever seen.  god gave us a hope and a future that day...and at almost a year later, i finally am beginning to understand.